If not me, then who?
"It's the same for everybody. It's just my body. I've got to take care of myself. If not me, then who?" - Dolvett Quince

This quote has stuck with me. It's time to lose some weight and to love myself. Because no one else can do it for me.

50 pounds is the goal. Starting today. March 15th, 2013.

Let's go!

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It’s not actually day 4, it’s day 15! I finished the first fit test with improved results and my blue and white polka dot dress fits better already and I feel stronger. My only problem has been my diet. So, I’m getting that back in check starting tomorrow. But I’m so proud of myself. Already lost 5 pounds! :)

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Day 3 was successful in that I finished insanity, but also managed to eat healthy and go to CVS without purchasing more make-up. (Money generally flies out the door with me - even money I don’t have!)

I normally stop eating at 8pm, but considering I had breakfast at 12:30pm, I figured it was safe to have a snack around 9:30pm. I looked up some healthy recipes and found the most AMAZING treat. Just half a whole-wheat bagel smothered with 2 tablespoons of greek yogurt, a tablespoon of honey over that and a dash of cinnamon on top. It really truly made my evening. So delicious!

I think I’m well on my way to success. Here’s to hoping this is the change I’ve been waiting for! :)

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Reddit is the best thing that’s ever happened for my motivation. Every day I score r/loseit and r/progresspics and I want so badly to post on there one day… Frankly, it’s the reason I keep going.

Another reason is that my mom and I have this friend who doesn’t realize she’s an asshole, but she is and ever since I can remember (I’ve know this woman since I was 3) she has told me to lose weight. There were times in my past when I didn’t need to, but when I began to realize that I did - well, that shit really hurt. She has a tendency to treat a lot of people negatively when positive things happen in their lives, so I’d really like to hit her with a metaphorical punch and actually lose the weight.

Bought another lipstick today (Mac Cosmo), it’s a problem. But I love the shade! So, whatever.

Finished Insanity Day 2. I’m monstrously sore, but I’m definitely gonna keep going. I can DO THIS!! My problem is just dealing with the food aspect. I’ve got some sense of control over it, but I think starting tomorrow, I have to really watch out. Keep a journal. Maybe not for calories, but just for amounts.

See you then!

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I think the world is setting me up for some self-improvement, so I’m going to take it. I recently finished watching the latest season of The Biggest Loser, after which I surfed youtube for interviews of Dolvett Quince - their newest trainer. He seems like a nice guy; really into helping people out on their journey to be fit. One thing in his interviews really stood out to me and that was when he did his own workout routine. He said, “If not me, then who? If not now, then when?” It really stood out to me and so I’m letting that control my life.

I’ve also gotten very into make-up recently. Overall, I just want my outer appearance to reflect who I am on the inside. That is, a put-together, smart young woman ready to take on the world. I’m 22 at the moment and by my 23rd birthday, I want to have lost 60 pounds. It’s not impossible. I need to look nice and to be in shape and that’s it. I need to be proud of who I am from all angles. 

So, with that said, I began the Insanity program today. It made me realize just how out of shape I really am, but that’s okay! Because I’m young and I can’t improve and I will improve. I’m so looking forward to it!

I went to the mall yesterday, because I wanted to try a new foundation that I can’t afford: Chanel Mat Lumiere. The woman at the Chanel counter told me that it’s going to be discontinued, so they’re running out of the shades, but as I was just about to leave she stopped me. After rummaging through the drawer, she found a full .7 oz sample of my shade and gave it to me! Of course, she said it’s “our little secret,” but that was $40 worth of foundation - the regular bottles that are sold are 1 oz. I think the world is telling me it’s my time and I’m gonna take it.